Learning

So I don't have much to say really.  This month has been full of surprises, learning and working on staying positive.  I am learning more patience - both within a family situation but also with a 3 year old daughter.  I am learning how much influence I have over 2 little ones and am constantly trying to adjust my attitude to help not only myself, but them as well. 

I have been seeking spirituality lately which is something new for me.  I'm still not sure where I stand, but I do know I am waist deep trying to figure it all out.  I'm not sure what brought this one, and I'm not sure anything will come of it, but I do feel it is something I "need" to do.  Something inside me is stirring......

Within our community I have stepped up and stepped down with some commitments, and although I can feel some did not agree with my decision, I do feel I did what was right not only for me, but also for my family.  I cleared the air yesterday with one member, and I feel pretty good now.  As long as the situation doesn't stay awkward, then we're back to an enjoyable experience.

I'm happily completing little acts of kindness here and there.  This month we have made a hamper for Ronald McDonald House and delivered it (it included probably 30 items from their wish list), we made homemade soup and delivered it to a friend and her family, we sent a thank you gift to the nice local company who back bladed our driveway at no charge, we made cookies for a friend in exchange for cinnamon buns, we continue to sort clothing for Baby Blessings (a local charity that supports teen pregnancies), and we set up a birthday surprise for "daddy" while he was away.  These are the things I'm most proud of.  They remind me of a time when I first was dating J.  He was talking about a conversation with his father (when his father was sick) and how the only thing M wanted for J, was to "take care of people".  As J retold this story to me in detail, with tears in his eyes (and the only time I've ever seen him cry) I knew it was important to him.  So I am most proud because I know I am teaching this to the girls exactly the way he'd want me to and I'm helping fulfill his father's wish for our family.

Well I need to keep this short, so for now, I'll leave it at that.